As I Lay Here

as i lay here alone, reminising in my bed
trying to put everything together in my head

i begin to understand what im feeling
and there's only one thing with the power of healing

i remember all the gazing looks
and all the breaths you took

i remember holding your little hands in mine
and how you made my dark days shine

i remember the taste when we first kissed
and how two minutes later, i already missed

i remember the ways you said I love you
and all the crazy things it made me do

i remember the beauty in your smile
and not being able to say anything for awhile

i remember all the prayers i prayed
and all the promises we made

i remember our stupid little fights
and our kiss and makeup nights

i remember watching the same movie a thousand times
and thinkin to myself, as long as im with her, i dont mind

i remember the future that we both drew
and all the things we went through

i remember the tears
and the fears

yes, i lay here again remembering
with all of these feelings rekindelng

and ill go to sleep with these thoughts on my mind
and wake up in the morning, only to find

that the the smile on my face was from the dreams of her
and that she isnt really still in my world

so ill start my day off again, with that emptiness
and it wont be long before ill begin to reminise

all these thoughts and feelings come rushing in
and im in a world of my own once again

its something i go through every day
living my life barely okay

looking foward to bedtime
when again she'll be mine

yes, maybe only in my dreams
but its real for a short time it seems

that we are together
and that this time it will be forever

not wanting to have to wake up from this
and wait untill i fall asleep again for another kiss

so as i lay here now, i dread tomorrow
when ill begin again my pattern of sorrow

but im ready to be taken away from whats real
to a place where i can actually feel

the love we once shared and what i once had
will be mine again, and i wont be sad

so i say goodnight to you
and maybe when i wake up, my dreams will come true

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1. 4 SUGAR BEAR says:

   AWESOME job...You have such a gift of expression.
   ~PEACE OUT