to all the girls whom ive dated

(this is my big "what if" poem... everyone has one so i wrote mine down. this talks to all my dates since i turned 12)

I sit here alone
in my raged shoes
wondering, "What if
we hadn't broken up?"

"Would you be so happy?
Would you, by chance,
have been my first time?
Would we still be friends?
Would i have to beg
to speak to you?"

If we hadnt split, i wonder,
would i be writing this?
Maybe we'd be off on a beach,
somewhere where our parents,
no matter how hard they tried,
couldn't find us.

Maybei wouldn't be the same person.
Maybe i'd just be younger,
less experienced, less loved,
or maybe you wouldn't have gotten
tires of me
and split with someone..... else.

What if?
What if i had chosen you over her?
What if i had gone out with you first?
What if i had called you?
What if i hadn't been so clingy?
What if i hadn't ignored you that day?
What if i had said something different?

Too late now.

Responses

2 comments so far.

1. Vitachka Zektser says:

   i find it weird-but nice

2. the lover says:

   deep and asking the questions we all ask after break ups
   arg i hate break ups
   i feel ya dude