things i miss,but dont want back

How does it feel to not look back?
to not care and forget the past?
and not make any mistakes'
to look at everything but me?
and not miss our kisses,our hugs?
To not miss my hands in yours?

You act like nothing happened?
Like you can feel it, with anybody..
have the same conversations
take them to the same places
React to everything the same
Look at every girl and not think of me?

To hear our song
AND think of her
Your like a ryhme
Doing everything the same
but with someone new each time
Your a PATTERN
with a never ending change.

I know i wasnt perfect
I didnt always give you what you wanted
what other girls could do for you
BUT..
You made so many changes in me
I see everyting differently
I look at every boy as if it was you

They come amd go
some stay longer than others
None compare to you
Noone can make me laugh, smile and feel
the way you did
You were something special
Something i cant get out of me

I forget about you today
but tomarrow your back in my mind
So many thing i would change
nothing i would change about you

When i was in your arms
nothing could go wrong
everything i thought was perfect
seem to disappear, along with myself
you made my heart feel so strong
but my legs feel so weak

My hands only knew yours
but now there nowhere near
My lips only wanted yours..
now there off somewhere else
Trying to get over you
my minds says Yes, but my heart cant get the clue
Seeing you makes me reminicse
Things i dont want back
But everything i miss

If age is nothing but a number, is
love nothing but a feeling
that soon evenually goes away?

What i felt for you, was always stuck inside
Never could get it out
Thats why im overflowing now
So many things still inside
Everything i told you
seem to be a lie
I was either to weak or too strong
Never right or wrong
I acted if everything was always FINE
but nothing ever was
I was either meant for you or not at all
i guess you knew the answer all along
taking me longer to find out.

-carlymarly

Responses

2 comments so far.

1. Vickie Rosen says:

   this poem is amazing...i love it. its so heartfelt. im goin thru the same thing right now.

   --vickie--

2. Leah Pilger says:

   ive been here, in this position. Its taken me a year to get over it. Now I've finally got a new guy to make me happy, although I cant say the feelings for the other are gone forever. I still compare, I still look back, I still remember. But in the end, I KNOW it never would have lasted if he didn't feel and want me the same way. Good Luck and Great Poem. -Leah