Still, I Would Love You

You could snap my arm in half at the elbow
then twist and tear it off at the shoulder
as warm blood trickles quickly past
the shreds of meat left dangling off my body....

Still, I would love You.

You could peel my skin from my face,
starting at my cheek as you dig your nails
into my flesh and begin to pull slowly
as I writhe in unspeakable agony....

Still, I would love You.

You could drive your fist into my chest
and pull out my heart and crush it into
runny pieces of raw flesh and shove it
into what is left of my face....

Still, I would love You.

You could tell all of my friends and family
that I was a dirty nasty whore with contagious
disease thriving throughout my body and slander
my name until I was too ashamed to raise my head....

Still, I would love You.

You could do all of these things and let me live
to suffer them as I rot out the rest of my life.

But you didn't.
You didn't do any of these things to me.
No......
You took my child instead.
In one dark sobering moment, You took my love,
my hope, my dreams, my reason....

God, I don't know how to suffer this.
This pain is so unbearable I could curl up
into a ball and hide in a dark corner for hours...
This pain is so strong, I sometimes feel nothing at all.
I know these are my eyes, yet they feel like
they belong to someone else.
My eyes are open, I just can't see.
There is a sickness in my stomach that is so
pulsing that I think it will kill me.
Sometimes I wish it would.....

God, when You can help me to accept
and make sense of this horrifying waste of life....
This Plan....
Then....
Still, I would love You.

Responses

3 comments so far.

1. Artemis Fowl III says:

   oh oh oh wow i... im speachless. such pain and agony but still such love. you are an amaizing person and poet.

   wow.

   mike

   ps i have a lot more poems that i dont think are as good as my first but if you would read them it would be helpful.

   thanx.

2. roxanne lamb says:

   I've read all your poems and this one hits home the most for me...seems almost inhuman for one being to indure so much pain, yet, still have the ability to continue love and have faith and believe that there IS a reason for everthing...we've all encountered what each of us feels is the deepest pain there is, yet, we continue to love...well written...=)

3. Cel Laroque says:

   wow that was amazing. i love the detail and the honesty of it all. truely enchanting.