Recent poems

i'm still thinking if NOT FINISHED.

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 04:51:07 -0700

i've been putting myself through blame and hate
like i have nothing left to lose.
all the anesthetics in the world couldn't keep
these senseless thoughts from circling around you.
[is it true only time heals the broken and confused?]

i realize in truth you are nothing but a parody
of the passion my heart upholds
and i KNOW i'm wasting my time if i have too much hope.

it doesn't help that i felt i always had something to prove
when you spoke those unforgettable, unforeseen words,
and since then every thought ate away at my mind.
i scared myself to ailing insecurities that caused the losing of you, the loss of myself too.

as much as i tried to fix my mistakes,
i guess the shortest distance goes a long way.
my only regret is never having the courage to say first
those unforgettable, unforeseen words the night i had you last.
but the past it the past filled with recent days i also wish i could take back.

there are two more words i wish i could say to your face.
fuck you or i'm sorry? which ones?
give or take.
if i could just have one more day..

Solitude

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 03:56:46 -0700

Tramp in busy streets,
A rose in a bunch of weeds:
Living life is hard.

019: The Kindness of Strangers

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 07:26:06 -0700

Strangers, who are they?
Just someone you have never met…
Are they different?
Are they queer?

Or just someone who isn’t dear? ...

Don’t be indifferent
Don’t be shy
Just because they
Don’t catch your eye…
Talk to them
They won’t bite
You might find that them,

You’ll get to like…

The Kindness of Strangers
For the best part,
Is when it’s given from the Heart…
I may be wrong
But, I recall

That’s the nicest thing of all…

Colin J… 22 July 2008

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..::a moment of clarity::..

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 02:44:54 -0700

this is the documentation
of a rebel's revelation
of the gradual evolution
of the coming revolution.
i see clarity through distortion
and distortion through distraction.
enemy and ally alike will know
god is the sun, above rules below
and malign and selfish actions
result in violent interactions
so to survive for any length,
eradicate weakness and cultivate strength
because for a positive resolution
this is our only real solution.

..::a word of advice::..

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 02:43:12 -0700

nothing's as fun as ruling a nation
the feeling of power is close to elation
addictively sweet and great however
i cannot imagine any endeavor
so dangerous as wielding power
especially as we approach the hour
of judgement day for all mankind
when the strongest souls leave the weak ones behind.

..::take the red pill::..

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 02:42:32 -0700

little red pills help me see the light
and i took sixty-six to see it this night
see drugs can show us a chemical truth
reveal hints of the future or remnants of youth
drugs can save lives or make them worth living
but can also kill or control and they aren't forgiving
it's unfortunate that many condemn drugs these days
like a double edged sword they can cut both ways
but it's only when they're placed in arrogant hands
that they're the most dangerous tools known to man.

..::passionate stoicism::..

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 02:41:36 -0700

joy and love and rage and hate,
these don't mean much at any rate.
see, pleasure and pain by any name
in the end are much the same.
emotions change and so might you,
but actions i trust to be more true.
so instead of anything i can feel,
i put my faith in things more real:
loyalty, strength and intellect,
these are things i can respect.
emotions that change from day to day
will make a heart bitter, or scare it away.
but proven honor can set things right
and keep a heart's flames burning bright.

..::the beauty of isolation::..

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 02:36:35 -0700

for far too long i felt torn apart
for far too long pain divided my heart
because all my life i searched about
for comfort so hidden that i went without
the truth was elusive and anger was strong
my will was weakened until i saw what was wrong:
between love and hate a line divides
to the unenlightened it may seem wide
this line is indifference
and it's really quite thin
because there's really no difference
when your heart lies within.

..::star shaped teardrops::..

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 02:35:54 -0700

crying again for the first time in years
nothing to do but count all the tears:
a tear for each heartbreak,
a tear for the shame,
a tear for each shattered dream,
a tear for each name,
a tear for each memory,
a tear for each scar,
a tear for each injury,
each tear is a star...
tears upon tears falling down from the sky
years upon years till i drown and i die

A Long Winding Road

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 23:24:01 -0700

Originally a song
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Moving down this winding road
Have no idea where I'm going
So today I write this ode
and keep the music flowing
And with these final words
I'll say goodbye
To everything I worked for
and Everything inside

I won't be back tomorrow
I won't be back today
Of all the love I've borrowed
Yours showed me the way
I won't be back tomorrow
Today's another day
Filled with heartache and sorrow
Will I be okay?